Good Luck SCT students!!

Someone posted this Korean's singing last night on Facebook...
amazing!
sing till out of breath at the end though...
haha...

Beyonce - LISTEN

Suddenly in love with this song ♥♥

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Back to FINALS

Tomoro will be first day of finals..
just now 8pm only start to feel anxious about finals,
if not... don't think will start studying,
or should i say say MEMORIZING...
haha!

Tomoro's paper is communication skills,
which stands only 30% for finals,
guess no one is studying it...
i'm only studying it tmr...
last minute studying still the best..
cos tips all given...
hahahahaha

Friday will be Web Programming 1 test,
open book test..
dunno what to study..
either know or dunno...
haiz....

Next week's paper will cause us brain damage,
3 subjects straight that need to memorize,
Monday E-Commerce:
tips dunno can be trusted or not,
hope Ms Angela not so bad.. haha

Tuesday Intro to ERP:
12 chapters!!!
die... gone case....

Wednesday Project Management 2:
should be no problem for this...

Thursday Quantitative Techniques (Maths):
should be no problem also,
just hope won't forget to bring calculator,
haha


Good luck everyone!
although this is a tough semester,
hope everyone can pass all subjects!

depressed... again...

Never expect to have this feeling again...
Never thought will ever like someone so fast..
i know this is stupid..
yeah! i'm stupid....
that's why i'm hurt again...

Why are all these problems arising when my finals is reaching...
Maybe everything's happening too fast?
Maybe i'm thinking too much?
Maybe i shouldn't be so stupid?
Maybe... Maybe...


(i thought of something to write just now...
but it just flew past my brain...)
damn it!

24.11.09 down

Now currently in depressed mode...
I'm so down...
I don't feel like talking...
don't feel like eating...
just wanna be alone....
waiting for her...

Why everytime i think of putting down..
something will happen....
(this is definitely not the first time i'm saying this)
i have to get over it soon...
i'm suffering...
i'm heartbroken...

Quote from Aman:
the best way to get over a relationship is to get into another one

I doesn't feel stress for the finals YET...
but i've thought of what i wanna do during my Dec holidays....
I want to tidy up the room...
I want to work gao gao...
I want to go Penang...
I want to start studying for next sem's subjects...
I want to start preparing for final year project...
I want to plan for the sushi store...
I wanna do lotza things...


I'm tired....
I need rests....
I need to be alone....

21.11.09

这几天好像超时写blog....
不好意思哦....
哈哈....

Today whole day at home...
although finish typing Comm Skills tips and typing ERP notes now....
i felt i've wasted another day...
oh no!
this cannot be the way....
finals is coming!!!

Tomorrow's going Budi's house to make sushi...
test making...
if succeeded, we might open a sushi stall...
haha....
don't say too early first...


Dear Friend,
i know you're sad recently,
but i'm trying my best to cheer you up,
hope your saddie days will end soon,
okay?




*Happy birthday to Nicholas Pan Foo Yao, the big boss!
and Yang Yang!!


Cigarettes taken today: 0

20.11.09

Finally finished ALL assignments...
felt so relieved after struggling for sooo long...
but then have to start struggling for finals...
9 days away....
i'm not prepared at all...
GOD please help me!!

Today we celebrated Nick's birthday at Italiannies...
since he doesn't know what is it..
6 person eat..RM250...
wanna vomit blood alr...
i didn't eat much..
cos don't really have appetite..
or maybe because my stomach shrinked?
haha...

Rushed back to class for presentation..
Ms Angela's class...
so can be late bit bit...
kena beat by her...
cos she call me to buy J Co to celebrate Nick's birthday..
but we didn't...
so she call my group to present first..
and Kevin's group to present second...
and we curi curi go out and buy J Co without Nick's notice..
Budi and I go buy J Co, Kevin go home take camera...
so 'nothing' to do....
haha...

So long didn't run so fast...
was running with Budi from foyer to car park..
cos it's raining, and getting bigger...
have to exercise more...
so short distance yet very out of breath...
it's been like... 5 years? since i last run like that...

Continue with J Co..
the whole process of leaving the classroom to get the car,
and go side gate fetch Kevin & Mo Mo to Indah Villa,
and to Pyramid, parked car, bought donuts,
and back to Indah Villa to pick them up,
and back to college...
amazingly took less than 30 minutes...
can imagine how rush we are...
cos if we return late...
class is over and everything will be ruined...
thank god plan goes as usual...
hope Kevin will upload the pics asap...
cos it's the first time BIS has a group pic!


Rested for 1 day...
tomorrow gonna start fighting!
sunday will be going Budi's house to make sushi..
yeah!!




Cigarettes taken today: 0

19.11.09

认识你之前...
我不曾知道有心跳这个东西...
认识你之后...
我才发现它的存在...
因为每次看到你...
我的心一定跳到很快、很大声...
大声到自己会吓倒...
我没有夸张..
也没有理由要去夸大...

现在桌面背景放着这张图片:


突然觉得很喜欢这张图...
表误会...
不一定有伴才能放....
暗恋/光恋也可以放的....
哈哈

以前读marketing学过一样东西..
high expectation = high disappointment
low expectation = low disappointment
no expectation = no disappointment

i have high expectation this morning..
and of course, i had high disappointment later on...
but out of the sudden...
XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX
and i got happy!

突然间写去英文...
因为中文不会写...
退步了...
够力...


今天很早回家...
差不多两个月了....
我没有早回家过...
每天留在学校做功课...
做到8、9点...
有时甚至到10点、1点...
今天..终于可以像以前...
6点多到家...
终于可以在家看到天亮...
这个也不是在夸大哦....

酱说来....
我也是很久很久没有吃妈妈煮的饭了...
这两天突然想念家常饭...
就算在学校留到8、9点....
也有乖乖回家吃饭....
一方面健康点...
一方面省钱点...
可是这两天又要花钱了...
心痛....


Cigarettes taken today: 1/2
reason: fren wanna start eating...
call me to finish it...

18.11.09 eager to start work!

Today we have 4 hours break in between classes...
due to the 'devil' lecturer who's on leave due to some conference...
she's not so devil actually...
it's a name given by her own self..
haha...

During the 4 hours break..
we, as usual, went out from college to have lunch...
that's what we do every wednesday...
had lunch outside, and collect the receipt to 'claim' from that devil lecturer..
haha...
continue..
had lunch at wong kok..
cheap ma... RM3.99 breakfast set..
enough for me...
not enough for the guys...
haha...
after lunch, went to Charles & Keith to see the supervisor...
cos she told me to look for her during mid of November...
i thought she wants me to fill up the application form and stuff...
but then she straight away ask for my schedule..
so it means...
I GOT THE JOB!!
haha...
my holidays won't be boring anymore...
gonna start work immediately the day after last day of exams...
looking forward to start work...
cos it's my first time working in a retail shop...
hope i can lose weight from there as well...
^^

Mood spoiled by stupid TA during presentation..
sorry friends who get scolded from me due to my mood...
>.<




Cigarettes taken today: 0
there's improvement n_n

17.11.09

Realized i'm making myself to update this blog everyday....
actually i doesn't have to be so committed...
it's just that i wanna track down my progress on quitting smoking...
hehe...

I was without handphone for 15 hours today..
thank god i'm single..
there's no 'unreadable' messages in my phone...
if not scared mummy will take and read it...
haha...
realized that i can actually SURVIVE WITHOUT HANDPHONE..
amazing!
but 1 bad thing is that i've lost track of the time..
cos forgot to bring watch also...
hehe....

Today's quite relaxing day....
both classes today are for presentation...
and of course TIPS....
then we have assembly at 2pm....
playing pikachu volleyball during assembly...
after that went Budi's house..
since others doesn't want to stay back..
thought of doing assignment in Budi's house..
but his housemate, Sianny, is watching Narnia...
so we all watched together... =.=
by the time it ends is already 5:30....
6pm have to leave for dinner cos they've booked ticket to watch 2012...

While they watch movie,
me and Shi Yee go gai gai at Pyramid...
suddenly feel like shopping...
althought felt reluctant to take out $$ from ATM...
but really feel like pampering myself and keep buying stuffs...
so at last bought a keyboard, a necklace and a card...
felt so relaxed after stressed for so long....
it's time to 'suffer' again starting tomorrow!
haha..

Left pyramid at 8:30 and finally re-union with my phone at 10pm...



Cigarettes taken today: 0
Finally managed to control myself..
even Budi put 1 stick in front of me...
yeah!!

16.11.09 Sorry....

Gonna sleep now...
tmr have to wake up early...
and reach college at 7:30...
cos got 2 presentations to prepare...

This week will be busy will assignments and presentation...
3 presentations in a week...
so u guys will see me wearing the same set of formal for 2 days this week..
hehe...
not really formal though...
will be shirt and jeans....
and sport shoes....
haha

Next week will be 2 weeks to finals...
the feeling of fear is getting stronger....
i need to focus!
i know i can do it...
cannot let mummy down....



Cigarettes taken today: 3
sorry...
很对不起你...
(虽然你应该不会有感觉)
也很对不起自己...
but i will try...

15.10.09

Time passes soooooo fast...
15 days more...
is the beginning of our finals....
within this 15 days..
still got assignments to rush..
still got presentations to prepare...
and of course...
still got notes need to be updated
and still got reading and memorizing need to be done...

i'm very scared of this semester's results...
i'm sorry mummy...
i might disappoint you this time..
although u didn't ask for very good grades..
just call me to do my best...
but this time...
i'm afraid i'll do badly....
i'm too stressed up...
i need rest....
i need a break....

tomoro will have another ERP test...
another...cos total we have 3 tests for ERP...
all 5% each...
what's the point?
i don't get it...
i'm not prepared at all...
the notes are not even completed...
(i usually read from notes,
not from text books..)
i have no mood to study...really...
just hope to get over it as soon as possible....



*Cigarettes taken today: 0
reason: it's a sunday...
at home all day...

14.11.09

Went visiting Ruby this morning with Budi..
he looks weak..
talk also no energy..
he's so hardworking!
when we arrived..
guess what..
he's studying his Expert System!
luckily his housemate brought him his laptop..
if not he's going to bore to death...
haha..

Before reaching home..
went to the bank..
cos i lost my bank book...
Budi told me can check through ATM machine..
ok lor.. 'examine' the whole machine's function for 10 minutes..
but failed to get my account number..
went home disappointed..
mafan lar have to go bank 1 day to request a new one...

around 2 something...
went out for lunch...
so wanting to try the chilli pan mee nearby leisure mall..
mummy say got spiciest and 2nd spiciest..
last time sister eat spiciest until 'lao sao' 1 week....
geng....

on the way to leisure mall...
told mummy i've lost my bank book...
know what?
she say: the bank book with me ma...
u keep ATM card i keep bank book..
=.=''''''''''''
make me so gan jiong..
searching for it for 2 days....
then she told me want to bank in cheque dunit bank book de..
just enter ATM card and enter cheque....
=.="""""""""""""""""" again.....
nvm la...first time enter cheque myself ma...
now i know... haha

back to my lunch...
i ordered the 2nd spiciest pan mee..
first mouth eat...
start coughing like hell...
cos there's a chilli stuck near by throat...
trying to cough it out...
but after that...
eat like no rasa dy...
nice!
by still 'face to face's better..
hehe....

tmr gonna go grandma's house..
she making curry laksa...
damn ho liao....
everytime go can eat up to 5 bowls...
throughout the day la....
not 1 shot...
somemore tying to control my diet now...
hope u guys can see a different me next sem...
hope i can do it also...
haha.....



*cigarettes taken today: 2
reason: finish off what's left yesterday...
stupid reason!

13.11.09 心情低沉

觉得最近脾气很暴躁...
很快就发脾气...
而且最近很emo....
(朋友这么说)
可能是压力过大....
可能是旁人的关系...
也当然有可能是_ _ _ _ _...
自己懂就好...

刚才跟朋友去唱歌...
由于某些事情...
又emo起来了....
只想一个人坐在角落...
不想讲话....
不想参别人....

这几天喉咙时常感觉很干..
有可能是压力过大吗?
还是一直不够睡...
还是抽太多烟....
有时抽太多会怕....
想到了...
以后想抽烟...
就记得以前你线我的信息..
说: 表抽太多烟..对身体不好的噢...
我会尽量去记得这句话的....

想改变自己的discipline....
不再last minute做功课...
不再吃喜欢吃的东西, 只能吃可以吃的东西..
不再抽烟....
不再临时抱佛脚...
这些以前都讲过的....
只是没有恒心,没有毅力..
希望你会是我的推动力...
只要_ _ _, 我就会做到的...

刚才听one fm给观众打进去说祝福语/ 点歌/ 什么的..
有个男人打进去说他妈妈心脏进细菌...
他说希望他妈妈快点好起来..
因为她还没有机会享福...
他们5个兄弟姐妹都在等着孝顺她...
听了后觉得很感动....
现在想回来还有想哭的感觉..
是不是很emo所以会酱?

要去睡了...
明天虽然不想去学院做assignment....
想在家读书两天...
休息下头脑...
拜一再做最后一个assignment...
可是明天还是会去sunway hospital探望朋友...
听说脚不懂做么住院一个星期...
祝他早日康复吧....

10.11.09

最近太累了...
48 小时内只睡了 5个小时..
简直要疯掉了....

晚上睡觉连梦都没有..
一躺下去就立刻睡着...
早上更是难起身....
在学校整个 zombie 酱..
朋友都不敢靠近我...
怕我随时咬人...
哈哈...

刚才就恐怖了....
爸爸驾车....
我在睡觉...
头发有set所以都是睡睡醒醒...
突然有一part梦到自己驾车...
而且还驾到很快那种...
然后突然醒过来...
blur blur的在想...
够力! 车驾酱快手没有握着stereng...
然后手很自然的摆出握stereng的样子...
才发现那个是做梦而已...
不懂爸爸有没有看到...
呵呵...

今晚妈妈在家弄火锅...
比外面吃的好吃多多倍!
水饺和肉丸自己弄的...
而且是我最小弟弟弄的...
不错不错....

明天放学后要去kepong jusco弄digi的东西...
又是很累的要驾来驾去....
今晚不能太早睡因为明天有数学考试...
上次的因为3/4的人fail了..
所以老师给我们重考...
明天就要好好休息一天了.....

Need rest...

Finally...
it's now 2:47am...
i've complete Web Programming user's page..

now gonna complete ERP assignment...
including the Compiere and presentation slides...
tomorrow submit leh...
last minute work AGAIN!!
haha...

tomorrow might skip Maths class to complete Web Programming...
might also skip ERP class..
if really have to...
will skip Project Mgmt as well..
but i really don't hope to skip ERP and PM...
but still got Web Programming Admin side to do...
just hope can finish fast la..
cos need to do report somemore...
gonna vomit blood liao!

haiz... dunit to sleep liao la tonight...
tmr you guys gonna see a zombie + panda...
might collapse suddenly 1 day...
i need rest...........


-----edited----

It's 3:51 now...
gonna sleep a while...
only got 2 1/2 hours to sleep....
nitez~~

Half-relaxing day

Last night (Friday) stayed in college to do assignments..
we stayed until 1:30am only left college..
damn tiring...
pity the 'boss' have to fetch me home somemore..
hehe...

Today early morning wake up to go college again..
reached college around 10am..
start doing ERP assignment...
have to do it fast cos 1:30pm need to go cheong k at Neway Puchong...
Phoebe came on time to pick me up as i almost finish the ERP assignment...

Cheong K from 2pm till 7pm....
quite tiring leh...
no more voice somemore...
Joel was late for 3 hours!!
OMG Joel u're damn FAT alr!!
feel like punching u!!!
haha

Reached home around 8pm...
damn hungry...
morning 10am eat till then...
then wait for daddy to da bao my favorite '滑蛋河'...
after dinner...
fast fast continue assignment...

Started doing Web Programming...
damn 麻烦 de lo...
have to clearly sketch out every pages first before re-doing..
in case later anything wrong..
will have to re-do AGAIN..
ya.. this is my 3rd time re-doing it...

Tmr gonna go college at 11 to continue doing...
hope can finish tomorrow...
cos need to write 400 words report some more...
要人命啊!!

Gonna sleep now....
补回 my sleep debts...

Lesson of the day...

Was frustrated doing the ERP assignment...
everyone from BIS...
yes... i mean EVERYONE!!
came to the library (even no class today) to do that assignment...
everything was quite smooth at the beginning...
until after lunch, when we continue doing it..
all of us faced the same problems..
we're trying to solve it for.. 3 hours alr i think...
time to time went and look for the lecturer he's not there..
all trying to give up....
at the same time trying to look for solutions...

now.. most of them went back...
all disappointed...
cos we planned to finish this assignment today..
actually we cannot blame the lecturer for not in his office...
it's our fault....
we're doing this assignment last minute..
submission date is next monday...
and tomorrow will be the last day to consult lecturers...
i almost gave up..
until i check my mailbox and read a mail from a friend...
this is what brightens me up:





Hope everything will be fine..
everything will have a solution...

挫折

最近遇上一些挫折...

1. 学业上的挫折
这个学期有想放弃的念头...
真的受不了庞大的压力...
很没有心做功课, 没有心读书...

2. 友情的挫折
我知道是我自己太敏感...
可是就是不是很喜欢酱的态度...
最讨厌在我认真做东西时来跟我无聊...
问三问四...全部废话...
虽然是好朋友...
难免也有不喜欢的吧...
no one is perfect...
i understand this...



最近在听张韶涵的新歌..
蛮不错的...
很喜欢《偶尔》这首歌..
每次听到都会有感触...



我们都曾经 失去爱情
从你的身上我认识刻骨铭心
错过的花季 我的心也就结成冰
我们都曾经 非常努力
却常常的叹息 常常有了疑问句
所以我 离去

偶尔很清醒 偶尔却抗拒
偶尔有睡意 偶尔很伤心
当我们反复练习
想让爱归零 但无能为力
偶尔很开心 偶尔却下雨
偶尔有梦醒 偶尔很想你
当我们同时安静
也做了决定 却不要再见你

我们都曾经失去爱情
从你的身上我认识 刻骨铭心
错过的花季 我的心也就结成冰
我们都曾经非常努力
却常常的叹息 常常有了疑问句
所以我离去

偶尔很清新 偶尔却抗拒
偶尔有睡意 偶尔很伤情
当我们仿佛练习
想让爱归零 但无能为力
偶尔很开心 偶尔却下雨
偶尔有梦境 偶尔很想你
当我们同时安静
也做了决定 却不要再见你

偶尔很庆幸 偶尔却抗拒
偶尔有睡意 偶尔很想起
当我们反复练习 想
让爱归零但无能为力
偶尔很开心 偶尔却下雨
偶尔有梦境 偶尔很想你
当我们安静
也做了决定 却不要再见你

Finally...

Finally...
at 2:52am...
i finished my ERP individual assignment...
cannot expect good grade for this assignment though..
next need to prepare presentation slides for this...
but not now...
i'm tired alr....
nitez~~